Half Of My Heart

I have to confess...some of my most powerful worship times are not in church, but rather in my car, listening to random radio stations. God speaks to me in powerful ways through songs that have been written about something else in life...but so often He uses and applies the lyrics of them to my relationship with Him. Lately it's been John Mayer's Half Of My Heart. I know, I'm taking these words out of context of how what he was thinking when he wrote the song...but re-read them as if they were talking about your relationship with God.

"Then you came on crashing in, like the realest thing, trying my best to understand, all that your love can bring.
Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time, half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you that I can't keep lovin' you, can't keep lovin' you, oh, with half of my heart.
I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else, made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself. Lonely was the song I sang, 'til the day you came, showing me another way, and all that my love can bring."

So often I am frustrated with myself because I am guilty of loving God with only half of my heart...and I long to love Him with so much more! He has freed me from loving only myself, redeemed me so that I can begin to glimpse what love really is, and show me another way...but I keep living in this self-destructive way of only loving Him with half of my heart! I was created to "love the Lord with all of my heart and with all of my soul and with all of my might." Deuteronomy 6:5
Yet as long as I keep loving Him with half of my heart, I will be left looking for satisfaction and meaning in the people and things around me....worshipping idols as so many who have gone before have done. As I seek to love Him with all of my heart, and be loved by Him...I will say with David that "Your love, Lord, is better than life....my soul will be satisfied." Psalm 63: 3, 5